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Have you ever had a moment while worshipping the Lord, where you just couldn’t hold back the tears?

This is something I’ve experienced several times over the past year or two. As I have walked through some challenges and come through the other side, I can see how God’s faithfulness was leading me through it. And it’s an overwhelming experience.

This isn’t going to be a fancy post with lots of pictures. Just a raw, honest truth that I feel compelled to share. (And one that was too long to share in a simple post on social media).

Yesterday, I attended a women’s retreat near my home and the Lord used that day to minister to my soul in so many ways.

During one of our worship sessions, the band began to play a song that I’ve heard dozens of times. But within the first few lines, I was flooded with memories. Tears began to flow and I could barely breathe to sing the words.

You see, I could vividly see myself in the car singing this song and crying nearly 5 years before when I felt like our world was crumbling around us.

It was April 2014 and we were 10 months into being new business owners. We felt God leading us to open our gym and we jumped in with both feet and followed, naively expecting it to all be perfect because God has called us there. But it wasn’t perfect, not by a long shot. We weren’t making any money. Actually that’s not even accurate… we were losing money every single month; borrowing from anywhere we could and still not having enough to pay our personal bills.

We were losing our home, we were barely keeping our cars from being repossessed (and they weren’t even worth anything to try to sell), and we were drowning in over $25,000 in credit card debt.

I remember one day as I drove from our home that we had owned and called home for nearly 9 years to our new rental house with a car full of items, and this same song came on. As I pulled in the drive to our new home, I bawled and I belted our the words. I didn’t know what the future was going to look like and everything felt scary and impossible. Even with the couple hundred dollars we would save by moving here, we still would be losing money each month. And I was terrified that we had made a huge mistake and that we’d never recover.

But God had other plans for us… the next 5 years have led us to a beautiful place. Not always by a smooth course. No, it’s definitely been a challenging journey at times. We have walked through unexpected moves of our business, betrayal by people we trusted, financial struggles galore, challenges with our children, marital struggles that even included a season of separation that we didn’t know if our marriage could survive through, and the list goes on. But in each and every twist in the road, through every speed bump we encountered, God was faithful. And we have grown closer to Him through each step of it.

So when I heard that song and could see His faithfulness through the past 5 years, I bawled for a different reason. I was overcome with gratefulness and joy. You guys. He is so so good!

Click HERE to listen to the song that so beautifully wrecked me. The lyrics are listed below for you to enjoy.

You unravel me, with a melody
You surround me with a song
Of deliverance, from my enemies
Till all my fears are gone
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
From my mothers womb
You have chosen me
Love has called my name
I’ve been born again, into a family
Your blood flows through my veins
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I am surrounded
By the arms of the father
I am surrounded
By songs of deliverance
We’ve been liberated
From our bondage
Were the sons and the daughters
Let us sing our freedom
You split the sea
So I could walk right through it
My fears were drowned in perfect love
You rescued me
And I will stand and sing
I am the child of God
You split the sea
So I could walk right through it
You drowned my fears in perfect love
You rescued me
And I will stand and sing
I am the child of God (yes I am)
I am a Child of God
I am a Child of God (yes I am)
I am a Child of God (full of faith yes)
I am a Child of God
I am a Child of God
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God
I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God

No matter what you are facing, remember that He can “split the seas” on your behalf! You can walk right through!

Friends can you see His goodness all around you? I promise He is at work in whatever your current situation looks like.

Father, I pray right now for your beautiful child who is reading this. May they see you at work in their situation. May they trust that You are working all things out. Lord, your word says You will never leave us nor forsake us. And today, we are clinging to that truth. We are stepping forward into the sea and believing that in your time and your way, you will part the seas that feel so overwhelming right now. We believe that You will allow us to walk through this challenge in our lives. And we will emerge from the other side and be able to see your faithfulness Lord. Thank you Father! We love you and seek to honor You in all that we do! Amen!

Whatever you are facing friends, He is already there! Walk in confidence through whatever this day holds because while we may not see the other side, the Lord is already there working on your behalf.

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